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But what if it’s NOT PPD?

“So, what brings you in today?” the doctor asked.

When you know it’s not right…

I definitely felt off. There was something very wrong. I could feel it in the very fibers of my soul. I had this beautiful baby… a baby we had longed for for years. A baby we were finally blessed with. Our sweet surprise. And yet I felt like I was struggling. Struggling to keep my head above water.

When it finally falls apart…

Then, one morning about 3 weeks ago, I woke up with excruciating pain in my back. It felt like I’d pulled a muscle, but worse. I have no idea how I did it. Maybe picking up and putting down the baby carelessly? Maybe the way I was sleeping? (Still semi-upright because it makes nursing easier.)

The truth, as they say, will out…

As she finished up, she asked me what I had been doing for myself.

Everything changed.

She recommended I see a chiropractor. And I did. After a full evaluation it turns out that my pregnancy and c-section caused Diastasis Recti, or abdominal wall separation. My case was particularly bad, and hadn’t healed in the 10 months postpartum. Most doctors will tell you it will heal itself in 6–8 weeks so most women do nothing about it.

The things I knew but had forgotten.

I’m by no means 100%…but I’d say I’m back to about 80% of “old Sarah”. The day after my first acupuncture and second chiro treatment (I had them the same day), I found that I was literally laughing at everything. I couldn’t stop laughing. I felt like I hadn’t laughed in a long time.

It’s hard. And there’s no shame in admitting it.

Pregnancy and labour and delivery is incredibly hard. There are no words to describe it. Yes, you end up with something that makes ALL of it worth it, but too many women aren’t allowed or given the opportunity or even told it’s okay to / they need to process those hours, those days. Too many women have lifelong issues resulting from labour and delivery and we are all told to suck it up because it’s part of the childbirth process.

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